Where I've Been
Salut! I have taken quite the break from my instagram blog, and I am no better on here. Truthfully speaking, sometimes I don't feel inspired or I start to compare myself to other bloggers, which is never a good idea. I started this blog to express myself and to have fun, but sometimes I lose sight of that. Not only that, but I have other hobbies and it's hard to always be consistent in my blog world. I tend to spread myself too thin because I want to do it all, but there is never enough hours in the day. *sigh*
So, where have I been?
Well, let's take it back to April 23, 2021, one of the two days that changed my life this year. After picking up my boyfriend from his deployment, we headed to his hometown, Tampa.
While on I-4 I saw a motorcycle accident had just happened so I decided to stop and help, considering that is part of my nursing duty. Well, to make a long story short, the motorcyclist got in MY car and took off. When he sped off, I was standing in front of the driver's door, dragging me into oncoming traffic. Once the door finally closed, I dropped onto the ground, tumbled a few times and ultimately broke my sacrum. The motorcyclist drove off for about 20 minutes and crashed my car. Thank God Gabriel and I walked away with our lives that day. I still have some pain with certain movements and while sitting and unfortunately, I may have that for the rest of my life. *sighs again*
Moving on.
For the past 4 months I have been really struggling with my gut health. About 3 years ago I was diagnosed with irritable bowel syndrome (IBS), but in the past year I have been having more frequent flare ups. These flare ups can be attributed to numerous things, but one that most people overlook is stress. I was stressed prior to my accident from working overtime for 4 months, and then the accident obviously made it worse. But the most stressful thing was knowing my beautiful nana had stage 4 pancreatic cancer. Which leads me to the next day that changed my life....
My beautiful nana passed away on June 10th 2021, 5 days before her 75th birthday, a day she was looking forward to to celebrate with family. It's still difficult to wrap my head around the fact that she is gone and that I will never be able to speak to her again. The only thing that helps me overcome this feeling is knowing she is no longer suffering and that I now have an angel watching over me at all times.
My family and I went to see her in Arizona on May 26 and on June 1 we took her to hospice because they told us the chemo was not working and she likely had weeks to live. The very next day, we were informed she only had days to live.
A week later, she passed...
The amount of pain my family and I went through and are still going through is something I will never forget. I will never forget seeing the hurt in my dad's and his siblings' eyes when we took her to hospice and then again at her funeral. I read somewhere that grief never goes away, but you grow around it. I sure hope that is true. I love you nana and I miss you.
So yeah, it has been a pretty tough few months for me. But in between those hard times, there have been good memories. I was able to spend a lot of time with my dad's side, family I dont't see as often due to the distance. We have already started planning for the next time we see each other. We are thinking Hawaii...Greece... who knows, as long as we are together! But one trip that is for sure happening is going back to Arizona for the anniversary of my nana's passing and to celebrate her birthday again.
June 18th my cousin & sister for life got married! It was a beautiful ceremony and I am so happy for her and her love. Continuing with the wedding theme, my best friend since college asked me to be a bridesmaid! I can't wait to celebrate her union with her college sweetheart.
On June 26 I was able to accomplish a lifelong dream of mine....
BEING A DANCER FOR AN ARTIST!
I am currently a dancer for this up and coming Venezuelan artist, Sagcy (check her out on all music platforms). We opened for Alexis & Fido, a reggaeton duo I grew up listening to. I have always wanted to be a dancer for an artist and I am so grateful I had this opportunity. God willing, we are performing again in Atlanta at the end of this month and opening for the Panamanian artist, SECH! Shoutout Panamá! I actually saw him perform at a club in Panamá about 3 years ago right before he exploded internationally, so this is a full circle moment for me. Updates to come!
Last but definitely not least, on June 30th I celebrated meeting the love of my life 9 years ago! We met at the Florida Mall (*cringe*) after convincing my parents and his grandma to let us meet. Since then we have dealt with lots of difficulties like military life, long distance, a deployment and family deaths BUT we have also celebrated so much success, love and blessings. I love you boobear! *kisses*
So that is my life update! I am excited to start my blogging again and write a bit more on here! Until next time mon amours, xoxo.